40 days of song

for my lenten discipline this year i am taking on recording a song a day. part of it is making myself vulnerable, part is sharing my gift, and part is sticking to something. today’s song, i sang at the ash wednesday service last evening at church of the redeemer. going forward i will take song request and even possibly guest artist … stay tuned

today’s song: Beautiful Things by Gungor

… i apologize for being a little distracted by prudence …

kindness

this past weekend I attended the redeemer women’s retreat.

we talked about liminal space and being on the threshold of a newimg_5472 year. what does that mean for the past year? what does that mean for the coming year?

the last couple hours of the retreat we were asked to choose a little angel card that had a word on one side. we were to “walk” with the word for 20 minutes and see what comes to the surface. my word was kindness.

it was very cold outside and I had no desire to walk outside, I decided to write my word over and over. I first looked up the etymology and the definition but then began writing. being kind seemed like something familiar. like something i could do. people I know came to the surface, situations I’ve been in came to the surface. i was about 1/4 of the page down and kindness to myself came to me. being kind to me, for the coming year.

I cannot forget to show kindness to myself. have experiences but treat myself with kindness, don’t beat myself up because something didn’t turn out how i thought it should, or I messed up, or I forgot something.

I must show myself kindness

love & hugs

So many things can be said, this is all I’ve got …

This time of year growing up was when we would go to nursing homes and dance for the residents. As students, we would try to remember our dances from the year before, remember the Christmas dances (Santa Tap, Skater’img_5264s Waltz etc.) and hope our costumes still fit. I remember sliding all over the linoleum in my tap shoes trying not to tear my ACL again.

Mrs. DeWeese was more than a dance teacher. She was a mother, mentor, and role model to us all. She did not care if you went on to dance but she did want you to do your best and be a good person.

We were all held accountable. We were all expected to make our own decisions. We were all taught and expected to perform to the best of our ability in all things. We were taught poise. We were taught compassion. Most of all, more than learning the art of dance, I learned what family and community means.

When you walked on the wood floor of the studio, you were expected to leave the rest of the world outside. What was inside the walls of the pale green church were what mattered. The people you were surrounded by were your sisters and brothers and they were the most important thing at that moment.

This taught me how to be present to someone. You dare not stand with your arms crossed or on your hips. You looked at your teacher in the eyes when she spoke. You took correction humbly and with humility. You allowed yourself to be vulnerable, to connect to your emotions.

I am who I am today because of her. Because of the lens I am able to look at life through. Because I am able to think about something and try to understand it, before I try to make my “feet” & “body” do it. Because I was able to be myself, flaws and all, and be told I was beautiful. Because I was supported. And because we laughed.

But most of all she taught me how to love, unconditionally.
All people.

Rise in glory!

love & hugs to you Mrs. De.

just bloom

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at the beginning of summer this wild rose was reduced to nothing by a weed whacker … as well as being completely shaded by a neighboring bush, it bloomed into this:

“stay strong through your pain
grow flowers from it
you have helped me
grow flowers out of mine so
bloom beautifully
dangerously
loudly
bloom softly
however you need
just bloom” – rupi kaur

#bloomdangerously #justbloom #milkandhoney

milk and honey

after i ordered this book i read it cover to cover.
so much encouragement and so much compassion held within.

and it is the reason to begin writing intentionally again. Kaur writes of the healing that comes from writing, specifically poetry.

“my heart woke me crying last night
how can i help i begged
my heart said
write the book”
― Rupi Kaur